"...Cause you won't let go of anything you hold."

Today's post is inspired by the above song.

'Bless my soul, you're a lonely soul, 'cause you won't let go of anything you hold.'

This line constantly reminds me of my friend Alex, mainly because she said the same thing to me once. She pointed out that I have trouble letting people go, no matter how much they may have wronged me in the past. If you've managed to find your way into my heart, as a friend or otherwise, you are destined to stay there, whether I wish for you to be there or not.

And sometimes, the people I find on my heart, I really wish weren't there, simply because I love and feel for them so much, and sometimes I feel powerless over those feelings. And sometimes, those people want nothing to do with me.

'Because all I need, is the air I breathe, and a place to rest my head.'


This line reminds me of how I often try to stuff those feelings to the back of my mind. Often there are time that I feel that thinking about, praying for, and loving the inaccessible people in my life can do no good. I often say to God exasperatedly, 'Why? Why do you keep putting this person there?"

Ultimately, though, they are on my heart, and I am powerless to put them away. So the few of you that may read this who are at a long distance, know you're in my thoughts often.

And those of you that are close by, know that I love you all, very very much.